Weekly Tarot: Nine of Pentacles

 A card that represents abundance feels like simultaneously the most and least perfect card this week. I’m likely to have or at least arrange job interviews this week, I got an offer from a publisher for the queer womxn’s erotica anthology which I’ll be accepting once they answer my follow up questions. Weirdly, I feel more stressed by the idea of abundance than relieved - maybe because I’m worried about getting offers that work financially but not in terms of my time and my energy, putting me back in the exact same position I am now.

I think I was hoping and planning to have some solid writing time after this month is over and that’s not going to happen right now. It could, but if I have the option of earning a little more to set aside so that time when I do, I don’t have to worry about money. I seem, inexplicably, to be pretty employable right now so I do feel confident that when I take that proper break I can pick something up afterwards reasonably easily. 

I’m bad with choices, I think. I’m bad with turning things down and saying no, about making the right choice over the easy choice that then turns out to be harder. That’s something I need to work on- maybe this week is about re-learning how I view and deal with abundance.